An honest post on why I'm not quite sure where I fit into this industry anymore! - Words & pictures by Hayley...
The pictures in this post were taken on my trip to The Maldives back in March; 'just because'! 🙂
As in really struggling. To keep up with creating content that I'm proud of. To stay focused. To understand my goal. To remember why I started.
And I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one. Lately, I've felt a wave of uncertainty ripple through the blogsphere, in the first time, well in five years since I've been blogging. All those ladies that I'm proud of every single day and can call my friends, but there seems to be a little bit of apprehensiveness right now.
It kind of feels like when we were back in school, and we were pressured into picking our subjects, some of us had no idea, how could we? We were young and indecisive, some of us panic selected. That's kind of how I feel right now, so many bloggers are absolutely #BOSSING it, singing book deals, becoming TV presenters, launching beauty ranges, and whilst my heart is bursting with pride, I feel like I don't know where I fit in anymore.
Like I'm scared of being left behind if I don't 'panic select' my route in the blogging world. Will I loose my identity or my credibility? Will I be forgotten for not having a solid pathway or direction?
I feel like my blog is a life puzzle but there's one piece missing and for the life of me I can't fill it. I often think that as a creative worker, there will always be a slight something missing, because I feel like we strive so badly to always be better. To push ourselves to the absolute maximum, then we turn sideways and see that someone is doing something that we deem better, then we're back to the drawing board, wondering why we aren't them.
Being self employed is way more complex that it appears from the outside. I'm a firm believer of the iceberg effect, what you see from a readers perspective is just the tip of the iceberg, but underneath all of that is the constant pressure we put on ourselves daily, the emails, the editing, the scheduling, the publishing, and so the list goes on.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm struggling to figure my place in the industry right now, it's so easy to feel disheartened, or like your content isn't quite good enough, or that other bloggers are working with better brands. We're always comparing, which, whilst this is healthy, it's also very easy to be destroyed by comparison too.
I feel like I need to take a few days to take everything back to basics and work out what I want from my blog and this career. What I do know is that travel is my main passion in life, it's something that I love creating content around and sharing with you guys, so that will still very much be a main focus here on FMIF. I feel like I'm tired of feeling the need to conform and fit in. I'm so glad that I have my beautiful girls working and supporting me too, I took them on so they could travel and share their amazing content on the blog, I made myself ill from trying to do everything and had to admit to myself that I just couldn't do it anymore. It wasn't healthy to say 'yes' to everything, just because I was scared of damaging relationships, now I have the girls to step in and share the work load with.
I feel like it's time to 'you do you boo' and keep my blinkers down as much as possible so that my vision and focus is always on what's in front of me, pushing me to move forward, onwards and upwards in my own direction (however that may be) rather than taking too much notice as to what's going on around me and letting that affect my work and how I feel.
What I also know is that I miss taking outfit posts 'just because', I mean that's why I started this blog, as a hobby, I used to get my housemates to take my outfit shots against a brick wall when we were at university; at that's how FMIF all began. These days I feel like there's so much pressure to shoot sponsored content and to make everything perfect, that I miss just shooting my outfit, just because I love it. Not because it's paid for activity or because I want to include affiliate links. I can't even begin to tell you, when you're a blogger your mentally whilst shopping massively adapts and you find yourself thinking; "that would look good on IG" or "that would shoot well for the blog".
I feel like I want to strip it right back and remember why I started blogging, and to fall head over heels in love with this industry all over again! Like a relationship that needs a little work, I have a relationship with my blog, and admittedly it is a love/hate relationship, it's not all rose tinted glasses I promise thee! But right now, I feel like myself and my blog need a little counselling, we need to hash out what's working and what's not, inject a little spice and start afresh!
So, yeah that's me and what's going on right now! I'll still be publishing four times a week because the girls on the team are absolutely SLAYING with their content right now and we have so much to share, from city breaks, home comfort cooking recipes and hotel reviews. But right now, for me, I need to figure out where I want to go with my content, to sit down with pen to paper, create a few mood boards, a few brainstorms and let that creativity flow once again!
As always, thank you lovely lot for sticking around and for reading! If there's anything you'd like to see more of, I'm all ears! <3
3 METHODS I'M USING TO INSPIRE & RE-DISCOVER MY CREATIVITY...
When I was at university my favourite methods of studying were taking pen to paper, creating lists, and building mood boards from magazine tears. Take a step back from the chaos of the 'online world' and re-discover what inspires you. What magazines do you love reading? Where does your passion lie? Take some time to fall in love with the offline world before falling in love with the online world again!
QUALITY DOWN TIME
This point maybe overlooked but for me; it's probably the most important factor. I truly understand the importance of down time and switching off, but i honestly find that I'm most creative on the weekend. After a fab night out with the girls where I haven't stopped laughing, or a lazy Sunday with the boy; quality time with loved ones always leaves me feeling rearing to go again, like I've just charged my batteries!
Pinterest for me, always has been and always will be my go-to for the ultimate inspiration! I love nothing more than creating boards for places I want to travel, outfits I'd love to shoot, or things I'd love to bake. Whether you make your board public or even keep it a private mood board, I'd highly recommend turning to Pinterest! So on that note gals, pour yourself a glass of vino and get pinning for some inspiration!
Much love, as ever, Hayley xo
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