A few weeks back I poured my heart into this blog post about a rough breakup I was going through, I’ve just re-read the post and it’s so hard for me to read as my emotion was so raw and apparent at the time but it felt like a weight being lifted off my shoulders sharing it with you guys. I wanted the post to offer support for anyone going through the same thing as me and felt like I wanted to be honest about my situation so you would all know I hadn’t fallen off the earth with my absence. The comments left on my blog post were so touching and truly overwhelming – I’m going to sit down now and reply to each and every one of them because without the strength you offered me at my time of need I don’t know how I would of got through those first few days.
I wanted to fast forward four weeks and give you a life update of what’s going on with me now, I can honestly say that I feel so, so much better than I did back then. I knew in my heart that those first few days were always going to be the worse that I’d ever feel, the days were so long and drawn out I felt like they would never end and my grieving heart would never heal. But it is and I know that now, as each and every day that pasts there’s something exciting going on, a song that reminds me of happier times and little things that put a smile on my face – and each time I smile I know that I’ll be okay again. I surrounded myself with the most amazing friends and work colleagues and realised that it’s not the end of the world, I’ll be okay and one day I’ll love someone again.
Once all this happened it really opened my eyes to the fact that I’m the one who is control of my life and my happiness from now on. I wrote a post the other day on wanderlust and how it’s always been a part of my life but something that was never a priority, I’ve always been itching to leave and travel, to explore the unknown and make memories in places across the globe.
So, the other week I made a bold decision to hand in my notice into work, I cried as I did it as part of me didn’t want to leave. I adore my job and the beautiful girls I work with but something told me that now was the time to start living the rest of my life and to open a new chapter. I’ve wanted to blog full time for a while now so I bit the bullet and I’m going for it, I have no idea what the future holds but I feel like if I never try, I’ll never know. And if it doesn’t work? Well then I’ll just get another job. My plan for the next year or two is to travel, a lot, to take my laptop, my passport, my heart and discover the world and take you guys along for the ride.
Everyone keeps telling me how ‘brave’ I was to hand in my notice and to follow my dreams, I don’t feel brave, I feel scared and apprehensive but also excited for the unknown. I love not knowing what the future holds but it’s exciting to watch it unfold before my eyes. All I know is that I’m so grateful and fortunate to have an attempt to turn my hobby into my job and to travel along the way, I really will be living out my dream, but then again, isn’t that what life is all about?
Live your dream and no-one else’s, don’t let anyone stand in your way or tell you that you can’t because the most beautiful lesson that I’ve learnt lately is that you can do whatever you want, you’re capable of anything it’s just that you need to realise your potential and follow your heart!