I don’t really know where to start with
this. I felt like this would never, ever have happened to me.
of six years ended our relationship because he had feelings for someone else.
it doesn’t feel real. This kind of shit happens in movies (Jeremy Kyle even), not in real life.
Not my life.
But this is my life and he’s gone forever, into the arms of
another and it’s my time to deal with what’s happened. This has genuinely been
the worst week of my life, I’m exhausted, mentally and physically. I’ve haven’t
slept, I can’t eat, my stomach is in knots and I forever feel sick just
thinking about what happened. I just need to know that each day it will get a
tiny bit easier and I just need to keep going on with my life.
Greece for a blog trip and it genuinely couldn’t have come at a better time! Over
the weekend the last thing I wanted to do was to go on holiday, I just wanted
to lie in bed and be left alone. I wanted people to stop pitying me, or looking
at me like a wounded animal. I wanted to curl up and pretend this wasn’t
happening. How could this be happening? How could he? After six amazing years
together he threw it all away! For what? A shag? Or a half assed relationship?
I know deep down that if they are together it will never work, they both
cheated on their partners to be together so how could they trust each other?
But you know what, it’s not my concern anymore!
thing I could have done and even now I’m sitting here listening to Taylor Swift
‘Shake It Off’ and everything seems to be the tinniest bit better than it did
yesterday. And deep down I know this is the worst it’s ever going to feel, and
that as every day passes a small piece of my heart will mend itself. From here
on it’s onwards and upwards.
best of my life I know there will be new memories that will help me move on and
heal the wound that has been opened. I’m just genuinely so upset at how it had
to end, I will never fully look back on the last six years and be happy because
it’s been tainted by what they did to me. By what he did to me.
after number one as I’ve realized that I’m the one who is now in control of my
happiness. I plan to travel lots, make memories with my beautiful friends,
focus on my wonderful career and one day eventually love again. My aim is to
get myself to a level of happiness that I had with him, heck happier! Then when
my heart is healed I know that I’ll meet someone who will treat me like a
princess, not a doormat.
post was but I just wanted to let you know what’s going on with me. I’ve
received so much support and kind words the last few days I genuinely can’t
express how much it means to me. I know I’m strong but right now I’m not, I
feel like I’m on a rollercoaster of emotions. One minute I’m so angry, then I
feel heartbroken and like I’ll never be okay again, then I hate them both for
doing this to me, then I feel a slight happiness bubble deep down at what my
future could have in store for me.
I’ll just wake up and this will all have been a mistake. He’ll just turn up at
my house like normal but it hurts so much when I think that will never happen
again. I’ll never get to hold him again, to tell him that I love him. He ripped
that all away from me and I hate the fact that I had no choice in the matter. I
never doubted that he would be the one I’d spend the rest of my life with, I
wanted us to marry on a beach in Thailand and have children together. But
now that will never be, he took it all away and I had no say in that. I feel
like someone has died suddenly and I’m grieving for the loss, it’s the worst
feeling but ever but all I can think is that everything happens for a reason
and I genuinely believe that.
but the support everyone has offered is helping to make me strong again because
your kind words are what I need to hear right now. So many people have been in
touch and said the same thing happened to them, how they wish they could take
away the pain and fast forward my life six months so they can show me that I’ll
be okay. Right now, it’s the most excruciating pain but I know it won’t last
forever, my heart has been broken, shattered into a million pieces but it will
heal in time. It feels like I was stabbed in the heart – I kind of wish I had
been as it wouldn’t have heart as much as this did. I know I’m not the only one who has ever been
heartbroken but my god I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, so I’ll never
understand how they could have done this to me, their ‘friend’.
that we can walk away with our heads held high. We did nothing wrong and
remember that what goes around comes around. I know it feels like you’ll never
be okay again, but I promise you we will. We will go on to lead fantastic
lives, draw strength from the people who care and love you and know that you’ll
be okay. Thank you to everyone who has cared and offered support for me, it
honestly means the world!